"Deep Down"

 
I can feel it building inside of me
It's making its way to the surface
But I'll make sure that I swallow it down
Because that seems to work out the best.

I hide it behind every smile
I hear it echo after every time I laugh
I can see it tattooed itself into my bluish-grey eyes
Perhaps it’s all I have left.

The mirror always shatters but you'll never see it break.

It's hard when I can't sleep soundly at night
And if I were to say that I dream the night away
I wouldn't remember the last time:

The last time I laid down to rest
Or the last time I was able to smile
Without this violent heartache in my chest.

The curtain always falls but the show will never end.

The nightmares that appear even though I’m awake
I’ve grown to ignore them all.
All of these tremors that crumble beneath me
Forced me to walk before I could crawl.

I can feel the earth dissipating underneath my feet
And so I’m forced to walk on the cracks
I can barely see through these watered down eyes
While the weight of the world breaks my back.

The shadow grows when the sun goes down.

Alone.. Alone.. Isn’t everyone alone?
Even when philosophy says that we can’t survive on our own.
I’m surrounded by people, yet they take miles to reach
Even though it takes them but two steps to get to me…