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I wonder if all of this will be worth it

I know it's my own fault;
However, I'm trying my best
You have no idea how worth it she is
Every effort I put into this
Every mile I run as I chase her

I know she doesn't understand why
But love can never be explained
Feelings come, and they overwhelm you
They overthrow you
They control you
They consume you
And they fill you with blissful ignorance
Like your favorite drug

Despite advice from those around me
I keep sailing on this blissful ignorance
I keep taking this drug
If you asked me why
I wouldn't be able to tell you exactly
It's hard to put into words

I just know that this drug is worth taking
Maybe I'm an addict
But it isn't the feeling I'm addicted to
And that's where people get me wrong

If you asked me whether or not this was worth it
I would shrug
If you asked me whether or not she was worth it
I'd smile, and I'd reply, yes

In the grand scheme of things
We all wonder if something is worth it
If anything is worth it, really

It's hope that keeps us alive

Hope is skating me by

I'll be honest, though,
I do lose hope, at times
I get confused
I get conflicted
And I wonder what's going on
I wonder what's going to happen

Because it isn't up to me

I lie here with questions
I lie here with thoughts
I lie here with dreams
I lie here with desires
Things that eat away at me
Things you'll never know
Things I wish you knew

Because I'm lying, here,
Waiting for you